I'm sitting here wondering whether or not I should write this post.  It's not an easy one.  I feel it may even feel a bit contradictory to some of my earlier posts.  However, this issue is continuing to occupy space in my thoughts so I feel I need to try to write.
 
I have written in the past how I feel about the role God plays in the abuse I and many others have suffered.  I've not only written about His role in abuse but in all things bad that happen.  I have written that I don't feel such a wonderful, loving, good God could have anything to do with evil and bad things.  This has been challenged over the last year.  God is increasing my understanding.  Here's how...